It wasn't even about having a drink, it was more about the fact that I needed a moment to myself that was all mine. I knew in that time my only moment was the shower. And to make the moment even sweeter, I added a beer. I have to say, it felt weird at first, but then it oddly felt so invigorating to be doing something out of the norm. I soaked up every square inch of space within my moment of "me" and I genuinely don't think I would have made it without it. Sometimes we just cannot make it to bed time and that's okay! Throw your kid in front of the TV every once in awhile and allow yourself some time. Some days you just gotta drink that beer in the shower, ya know?
It's been the summer of me. And I don't feel guilty one bit. As some of you know, in the summer my son spends a big chunk of the week with his dad. When new friends hear this piece of information I am often times asked, "Oh, I'm so sorry. You must miss him a lot?" I very kindly respond, "No, not really."
"Before you speak, think and be smart, it's hard to fix a wrinkled heart." It's the second week of Kindergarten and my son already got his feelings hurt. I knew it was coming because well, kids can be mean. But it didn't hurt my heart any less - and it very obviously hurt my sons. So much so that he pushed the little boy that said " I don't like you. We're not friends....I don't like you - double." Should my son have pushed? Absolutely not. But should he have stood up for himself? Absolutely yes.
I already see such a difference in his happiness and all of my anxiety has gone out the window. I really love connecting with his teacher, peers and their parents every day. I'm looking forward to the school year and being able to be more present in my sons life. I don't get the luxury of being a stay at home mom, but this is the next best thing and I'll take it for all it's worth.